2007/03/31

haf u ever heard b4 this saying.. an ending of this story is the starting of another story, do u tink its true? how true izzt??

today is quite a gd day for mi... really do cheer mi up...

ok i pass my powerboat practical test... muz thanks eliza for the "apple", and some of the fav canoeist who gimme gd wishes...

another thing is that issue is finally over...

another thing is that the dreadful and loathsome assignment is also over..

and one last thing dat makes my day ... a meaning ful day, i finally got a reply from the SIM seasportsclub..

this is the reply i got, "Hi canoist, I am wailoon from SIM SSC.Yes we are thinking of going into competitive kayaking. We could discuss after our exams.cheers"

been wanting to do it even b4 i got into SIM.. my fellow canoeist haf been giving mi lots of encouragement tooo and of course highlight the limitations to mi ..now finally can see a very small dim of light... muz hold on to this chance... and try to make it succced...

the end of one story... may be the starting of another one.. i really hope....

2007/03/29

hmm i got High Distinction for my business statistic test... but dat onli forms 30% and it is an terrible easy paper so nth to be happy about tooo.. coz alot ppl gettin it too..

anyway... the previous post was post in an angry state.. now dat abit cool off... i tink.. i was wrg to juz walk off lidat yest... this attitude wrg...

anyway received alot of smses...

but i would like to say that its not the issue if i row K or dun row K... becoz if the main issue lies wif K i alreadi quited last yr ler... coz after round ubin i had plans to upgrade to K alreadi.. but dennis told mi dat.. he wans the K to let the juniors use.... he tok to mi how he felt wat he tinks..he dun mind mi using cher K but he wan the juniors to use sch K and i totally agree.. had no hard feeelings... and cont to row T till nxt NKM... last sun, brian oso told mi dat he becoz i alumni he will put mi on the last list.. i am oso ok though i had to admit i wanted to row K... but yeah i agreed...

but now the issue is... they(yr 1) dun wan us to row.. dun wan to gif us slot... and yeah collin was sms mi saying they are not targetting mi.. but does that matters? coz lex is alumni so is mi so is dennis so is bernard so is anyone grad...i feel the same as lex.. we wanted to compromise and haf a slot to row ... but it juZ happen..so all alumnis are affect... of course i noe nt directed at mi... but its directed at alumni and i am like representative for alumni so wats the diff.

anyway i will pei lex finish his last race.. this i have decided.. and leaving nacc is oso decided.... yest 3am the vice-capt send mi a sms saying eh hope i wun quit dun wana lose a gd senior or rower... sendin this msg at this time on a trg camp... seriously i felt glad.. but i tink i still wont change my mind.... coz the hurt is done.. You noe its like i fall in love wif a gal.. and we got tgt... den one day she betray mi.. i decide to break up.. the gal later apologise... but the feeling is gone ler could nvr love her back anymore.. so i can be not angry anymore.. i can be not mad at anyone anymore but i will also not go back anymore...

anyway alot ppl been asking to move on from nacc.. i wanted to even yrs back.. but i feel so attach to this team.. i cant.. i say i want to leave a couple of times but i juz couldnt.. this attachment keeps pulling mi back... but now different ler... the attachment is broke ler... i can really leave now ler.... i tink this is the best for mi oso ba...if not 3 yrs later after i grad from SIM i still cant move on.. so now i finally can pls be happy from mi i can break free ler..

anyway yest nite when i was damn sad... and anger.. alot of ppl asking to come back.. and stuffs.. onli one guy call PEH WEIJIE.. my army fren... now school mate in SIM he told mi, "congrates man.. u finally quit"... this fucker saying this sentence ... really make mi luff...

anyway.. some ppl oso tell mi join cont to train and trash them hard show them blabla in race.... but.. ya i will cont to row with lex till he enlist.. but i dun really care i win anot alreadi.. in the past i wanted to train hard wanted to win is becoz i wanted np to show results for equipments.. i oso wanted recognition from the team to satisfy my own ego.. and wanted to push my passion to a higher level..

but now i dun feel the nid to show any results for np... i dun oso nid the recognition from the team anymore, i will cont this final as my passion and with lex passion..

And quite feeling sorry for them who juz grad.. i alreadi exceed my rowing yrs ler.. but them they juz grad onli...so i hope they can cont their passion in NTU... i tink i wont be able to fulfill this dream of tryin for nats team ler.. but even i can cont i dun tink my chance is high oso...so i hope they will fulfill this dream for mi.. :) they haf my blessings....same for the dragon batch ppl who haf the aim of getting in... hope they can do it i gif them my blessings too..

but not rowing for np anymore doesnt mean i am not rowing anymore if there is an alternatives i will definitely cont.. and mi quiting doesnt mean i wont go out wif those ppl i consider as teammates, they are not onli my teammates.. they are all to mi lifetime friends...

hope everyone will respect my decision.. and gimme blessings... i will definitely leave nacc ler.. i dun tink it will change...

anyway after this week, i dun wana bring this issue up anymore... this sun will be the last sun trg i attend as an np alumni rower.. maybe i will turn up maybe i wont.. see how first. but i hope this issue wont affect the current team.. although it does.. but hope it will be cleared soon.

the team still haf to work on team bonding.. a team nids to haf bond.. wif bond in a team u find lifetime frens.. wifout bond... u all are juz trg machines... training for medals onli, even keep winning medals oso no meaning... after grad.. everyone become hi bye frens and by the time u noe it u see no meaning in this thing called team... no one will remember wat medals u won before.. but ppl will remember how u make them feel...ppl wont remeber ur name becoz u won tis medal... but ppl will remeber ur name if u once pull them up when they fall, seriously who can remeber the medals i haf won these 2 yrs.. i doubt any....i am oso nt bother by it juz stating an example so pls cont to work hard on team bond.

ok another long essay tonite.. byebye gd nitez

2007/03/28

today had a big issue...
back grd of the story is dat... now dat we = alumni and new alumni... or ok juz mi.. i alreadi can get some medals wif T alreadi.. at first when ppl ask to upgrade to T i was saying until i can get medals on T i will nvr upgrade.. so after the last NKM dat marks the 3rd medal for T n so.. i decide it was time for mi to upgrade... and den the rest of the alumni wanted to learn K n haf a try in the last compy before they enlist... but of course.. equipment is priority goes to the members.. i haf totally no issue wif this..

so we willing to compromise and brian agreed to let us row on days dat didnt clash wif their trg.. i am willing to compromise to the extend last sat and sun... i take T.. and use the K onli after they finish wat they doing...

the big issue comes today.. the juniors ( now yr 1 ggin yr 2 ) dun welcome alumnis to row at all. Were able to tok about this issue is even becoz brian is ard wan us to tok thru this problem...
though the yr1 didnt say infront of mi they dun welcome mi.. but the reason they gif is sooo obvious anyone will see it.. 1st reason is ... now holidays brian open slot on tuesday , friday 2 slots, sat for attachment rowers and sun.. so they say its not ok for us to haf slot becoz they nid to train on other days too...

wat the fuck they dare to use this as an excuse.. now holiday the 3 slots attendance alreadi like shit... when school reopens in 2-3 weeks time.. they still can row everyday? so i ask them when sch reopen.. they will turn up for those days??? cannot ans! den immedidatly tok about key...
saying we no key... lex willing to step back.. ask them they we row for soo long ler cannot trust us wif key meh?? nth to say .. den say too mani key ard.... WAT THE FUCK! no nid to tink of so much lame excuses ... anyway am damn piss off , it alreadi hit my ultimate limit alreadi, i had to walk off... n i did.. nvr been so angry b4....

I do not with issues wif brian at all he is still a great fren to mi... trying to sort things out.. in a nice way he is juz stuck in between...its not the issue if i row K or row T now, its juz the issue wif some yr1 who do not welcome us... i totally see no pt in staying anymore...

I hope they know during weiqiang era when paddles nt enuff canoes nt enuff.... and cher rate is high for equipment rent.. so decide to push for paddles, new K, and new life vest.... but the sch reply is wana see results.. when wq got drunk he even ask.. how to make to team prosper... and so we fucking train so hard trying to see results.. those ppl from wq batch. jaime .. ppl from lex batch... dennis, bernard and all,.. and of course the dragon babies chin chong jiaying brian they all every one fucking train so hard trying to prove to school the one doing all the fighting for the equipements. Lex and chin chong PUSHING so hard for the K.... who are those ppl using equipments dat we fought hard for... they came in got paddle, got boat... and now cher dun charge the sch for equipment.... they are using things dat their alumnis and seniors fought hard for... be thankFUL!

Chin chong and brian told mi they tok to them alreadi.. and willing to compromise but i dun see the point anymore... even i stay it will onli be a yr once ur batch grad it will back to the same issue... chin chong haf a point when he says he wont let this happen and comm is selected by him.. but even lex who step down gloriously as a president haf no power no say in this issue... n those who raise up these issue are the ones who will be definitely taking charge of the club nxt yr.. it definitely doesnt solve any problem..

in the 1st place... come the issue wif mixing wif seniors is sucking up to them...
now dun welcome alumni to row...

wats nxt...

anyway though brian and chin chong make arrangement for us to cont row and lex hope i could pei him row... i nid to decide whether to continue anot... but definitely i am quiting already.. they already say out ler ... its like water splash u cant retrieve.. i cannot see my self rowing wif the yr 1 juniors anymore... even if i agree to cont row wif lex... i will quit NACC afterwards... i amy be rowing wif other or wat i donno but no longer np... there is no point staying anymore..

IT is really nice rowing wif the dragon babies.. they were juz fun and fun...and the dragon babies batch seniors were all veri motivating and full of fun... i really enjoy these few yrs rowing for nacc... i feel proud wearing those singlet that we wore to competition wif them... and seriously now i feel kinda disgusted wearing dat black and red singlet... anyway...

bye...

2007/03/09

Was doing research on my grp assignment and found this meaningful sentence which i would like to share..

" HArdship in training is essential because it builds confidence in peoples ability to persist through adversity into victory. Fun and revelry are important, because they enabled people to get to noe each other in a very transparetn way and thus build the camaraderie that is so essential to teamwork.. " --> this sentence juz hightlights the importance of training tgt and ggin out tgt..

Roobie Loomis , a successful NASCAR racer crew chief says' l like to use the analogy that when things are working well if one person spills a drink a teammate will jump down and start cleaning it up and another one will run and get another soda. Thats whats its about. And about selecting people for the team, he says its important to pick people of strong character who will be willing to work with th other personalities in the group. ---> this simply says... a team cannot haf selfishness everyone must be able to accept each other and help each other... not be selfish some ppl when washing boat likes to stand ard doing nth... disappearing when everyone is washing the equipments and i realised its always the same few ppl... and some others who nvr push trolley...

His personal philosophy with team is : If you "work hard give much, and expect little, good things will come your way.
(Ellis.L, 2003) hahaha after quoting so much from the book muz gif the author credits else i will be plagarising... :P:P