Private lonely blog

2008-01-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

2007 the year of the pork.. supposedly to be a year bad luck for ppl born in the year of the pigs.. well, bad things do happen.. but lotsa gd things happened too.

Starting of 2007 i am back to school studying in SIM finally, got to noe new frens, great frens, for the whole of 1 year.. am glad all my peers are all hardworking peeps, dat influenced mi to study hard as well, and not to be like how i used to be in poly. Donno my priorities at all.

ok anyway.. starting event of the year was NCM 29km race partnering with clemence. during one of the trg i got physical exhaustion and unable to move at all.. but well in the end the race we came in 2nd gd sorry for shouting at you during the race.. n sorry to land u inside dat ambulance :P

Continued in school, nth much about sch to update really... coz other den studying i didnt involve myself much in other stuffs, but still didnt forget dat i wanted to setup the canoeing club i SIM.. and so went ard askin alot of ppl. newae this gal in our lect look cute to mi hurhur..

later part is agm.. lexy and gangs finally grad they step down new commns step up.. student adviser oso changed. Politics start to kick in..shld not go into details nemore and i finally decided to leave np canoe club. hafin my last race in July..

ard april started studying for exams.. started working in brewerks.. got a satisfying results.. and good company and brewerks.. though politics kick in at work too.

in may durin one of the breaks, i received an sms from gavin asking to join their sim db team.
ok den i finally joined them. got into sim db family in may.

den comes PA paddle championship, partner jiaying for mix event. came in 2nd.
den june comes dragonboat festival race, won 2nd for ivp again too.
den come july my final race with np canoe club. and didnt get to win anything was veri disappointed wif my performance though trained really hard.
was down wif terrible sickness visit doc for a total of 4 times.. dats terrible and dat ends the first half of my 2007.

2nd half was great, got to know more ppl in school, great ppl, tried working in all kinds of environment including as a duck mascot.. kinda fun.. but damn shagged out after dat..

so nth much interesting.. still the same old study, train, slp , eat, work, got a satisfied results again.. and end the sem. though politics kick in again among my og grp... hai..

den come holiday found a job at ntuclhub.. quite a nice place to work in actually.. ppl are nice and i dun see politics ard in the dept. especially for one irritating guy..

den comes the cambodia incident dat not onli shock the team, but the whole rowing community and of course the whole of singapore... their passion will always live inside out hearts.

den went to penang for race.. came back wif a silver..

after return finally negotiation has ended and my sim kayaking team finally formed.. however still got alot of issues to be cleared.. i promise to hold on to this team for at least a yr.. if after a yr things still dun work out.. hai...

and juz den the student adviser, email mi saying np wanted to set up an alumni chapter for the canoeing club asking mi lex and nis if we are interested.. yet to hear from her ever since..

had a christmas party at geri hse.. crazy ppl fun gang..

went to orchard for countdown watch movie.. and spray.. got sick and stayed at home for countdown..

DATS IT byebye 2007.. welcome 2008, In 2008 will be definitely veri busy i of course i have set a few goals a few resolution, diff from wat i set every yr.. it is an important year for mi.. for mi to.... oh well if u wana noe den ask mi lor.. i will tell u if i tink i can trust u wif it.. :D

hope everyone had a great new year and achieve all ur goals in the new year

2007-11-14T00:32:00.001+08:00

haha today is my birthday thanks to everyone that gave mi bday wishes they are eliza, daphne, addie,liangcheng lex ,jiaying, brian, jiajun, jeremy, chin chong, dennis, wenqi, stephanie, meng, ziwei, regina, elva, chin koon, xavier, wailoon and lastly all those db teammates dat attended trg today.. sorry if i missed out any name not dat u r forgotten is juz dat i am too tired to tink sooo hard nemore

haha the first to wish mi early bday is liang cheng and addie they wish mi on 10th nov but later they send mi sms on the dot at 12am soo touched lor.. i tink he remember most likely is becoz our bday is same date juz diff mth.. and i nvr forget his bday tooo.. it juz hard to forget hahaha. den daphne oso wishes mi on dat day..

den meng send mi an sms on 12th nov haha tinking its my bday dat day but well it i told him thanks and it was on another day hurhur

on 12th nov actual day.. 1200am the first to gimme the wish is eliza thanks alot .. haha we r like always exchanging bday wishes on the dot hurhur... but well too bad for the financial part.. when vitamin M is stable lets exchange bday presents again okie hahaha..

den subsequently received msgs from daphne, addie,liangcheng lex ,jiaying, brian, jiajun, jeremy, chin chong, dennis, wenqi, stephanie, meng, ziwei, regina, elva, chin koon, xavier, wailoon haha some at ard 12am-1am oh man they really dun slp so early...

den at nite, i was hafing db trging in sch.. was a tired and shiok trg... den after debrief i was preparing veri happily wanted to go home eat my bday meal from my parents... got a surprised from daphne lex jiaying brian.. wif a cake and party boopers and afew snacks. didnt expect it man...they either had sch, doing ns or had work.. didnt really expect them to wait for mi in SIM till 9pm++ .. and doing dat the dragonboat team noes about it and all wishes mi happybirthday and seriously it is always the close buddies teamates. friends we celebrated my bday and everytime was a surprise...

time for some flash back coz after this update i will not update liao hahaha...

first time ok no soo surprised we had 4 days 3 nights expedition to hantu and sisters island.. my buddies noeing is my birthday making it know to the whole expedition.. well i felt like a star in the expedition hahha.. alot of things is like aiming at mi... and there is where the first scandal in poly started wif weishan in ob now a air stewardess wif SIA ... at the camp fire night after our skit and most hairy compy, the crazy ppl wanted to make both kiss.. but things soo awkward but well we ended wif a hug and some idiot took a few fotos and been saying alot of gossip wif it.. got presents from the committee, and of course a saga seed from eliza but i drop in into the sea HAHAHAHA

2nd is my 21st where i spend a bomb inviting some of my best buddies to eat..

3rd after a tiring sea trg donno from where they pop up a cake,

4th we had a terrible work at boat quay river regatta by SDBA.. most of them were helping out.. and donno from where after the event,... comes a cake.. we had buffet at boat quay the food is for some mp (vip) and the food is like sooo nice... hahaha i celebrated my bday at boat quay wif buffet at the prize presentation area and all that were setup properly its soo damn cool lar.. i bet non of u all get to celebrate bday at boat quay and wif sponsor buffet and the kind of settings b4 and had fun while seeing the sun sets hurhur... we all later sweep and mop the whole stretch of boat quay and den we went to clarke quay jump into the fountain and play ard.. den change up and go brewerks drink..

and den lastly is today...

Of course lastly i would like to thanks wenqi and stef for remebering my bday tooo.. so far i do not haf any female frens remebering my bday ba... maybe haf?? but not dat i can tink of.. haha and thanks for ggin out wif mi though due to tiredness and vitamin M shortage i am always soo boring in the outings..

den one thing in common.. is everyone who sended mi bdays wishes.. 90% called mi black hei or watever indian names they can tink of.. and 80% ask mi to get a gf.. hahaha ok i promise everyone dat i will quickly find a gf and haf sex wif her okie -.-.. oops =X.

den xavier who work wif mi for 2 mths in brewerks..
punneet my lecture mates HAHAHA sending mi his greetings from india
my db team who mass sang bday song to mi..

and of course lastly for those who turn up today for the cake namely lex jiaying daphne and brian.. and special thanks to everyone who had given mi the bdays wishes i am sure i will be bless for the nxt one yr wif all those wishes

2007-06-09T01:27:00.000+08:00

okok here is my post...
finally got my results..
my OB nvr failed managed to scrap thru wif a pass
got high distinction for my accting and statistic.. damn it GPA gona be pulll down super low...
anyway... thanks everyone who pray for mi dat i will pass my OB thanks to all.. coz ur prayers really work.. damn it i sound so christianity..

anyway i joined SIM db.. joined their trg.. really gd trg.. but is trg dat could take it... but still is shiong lar and will be stepping up week by week...

i donno y.. 3-4 of them came n ask mi if i am a national canoeist.. really donno who go n anyhow spread.. anyway... haf been trg db in the morning and den canoe trg in the noon.. quite triring but its juz for a mth+ more i muz endure it... national canoeist have been trg almost everyday... twice i am still far from it...

anyway on thrusday after SIM db row.. my db coach who is a national rower, ask us if any1 would like to join them for their nats team trg coz.. there is still 8 seats available... so i joined them since its still quite early b4 dennis and brian turns up at sdba... so i went down, alvin lee was in the boat too.. safsa and national team are trg tgt.. + SIM dragon boaters.. liek abit cool eh... 1st time in my life join national team trg.. how i wish its canoe national team trg.. how i wish...

train harder ba.. jiayou to all who is trging hard...

2007-04-02T20:57:00.000+08:00

forgot to say this but... i finally finished my last sunday row as np rower... i will row on wkdays from now on.. maybe sometimes on sat... maybe when there is a gathering will den turn up on sun... was gd things ended in a peaceful way.. though i say dun wana tok about that issue but sometimes it juz came up.. guess i am juz a person dat doesnt keep my word eh.. ok.. i really wana stop toking about it..

anyway.. the trg ended in way i wanted it to be.. less all the awkwardness... cher is not ard too..

I Started rowing offically for NACC as a double rower(my veri first offical trg)...back rower
I Ended rowing offically for NACC as a double rower (my veri last offical trg )... back rower

To mi i cherish this team.. but yeah i oso not a saint.. i do believe i sometimes will do wrg things dat make team mates sad... but my most memorable memory and fun days up till now is spend in the club as a NACC rower... i regarded a majority of them as my lifetime frens..

I gain alot of really really valuable things from this club.. i wont be mi .. if not for it.. nvr regret joining at all.. minus the bad things dat is toking non-sensical stuffs and etc etc hurhur...

anyway felt kind of relieve...like a big stone thrown out of my burden.. i feel that i can really slp in peace... wifout worrying screwing up relationship wif teammates..

ok done time for bed

2007-03-31T23:12:00.000+08:00

haf u ever heard b4 this saying.. an ending of this story is the starting of another story, do u tink its true? how true izzt??

today is quite a gd day for mi... really do cheer mi up...

ok i pass my powerboat practical test... muz thanks eliza for the "apple", and some of the fav canoeist who gimme gd wishes...

another thing is that issue is finally over...

another thing is that the dreadful and loathsome assignment is also over..

and one last thing dat makes my day ... a meaning ful day, i finally got a reply from the SIM seasportsclub..

this is the reply i got, "Hi canoist, I am wailoon from SIM SSC.Yes we are thinking of going into competitive kayaking. We could discuss after our exams.cheers"

been wanting to do it even b4 i got into SIM.. my fellow canoeist haf been giving mi lots of encouragement tooo and of course highlight the limitations to mi ..now finally can see a very small dim of light... muz hold on to this chance... and try to make it succced...

the end of one story... may be the starting of another one.. i really hope....

2007-03-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

hmm i got High Distinction for my business statistic test... but dat onli forms 30% and it is an terrible easy paper so nth to be happy about tooo.. coz alot ppl gettin it too..

anyway... the previous post was post in an angry state.. now dat abit cool off... i tink.. i was wrg to juz walk off lidat yest... this attitude wrg...

anyway received alot of smses...

but i would like to say that its not the issue if i row K or dun row K... becoz if the main issue lies wif K i alreadi quited last yr ler... coz after round ubin i had plans to upgrade to K alreadi.. but dennis told mi dat.. he wans the K to let the juniors use.... he tok to mi how he felt wat he tinks..he dun mind mi using cher K but he wan the juniors to use sch K and i totally agree.. had no hard feeelings... and cont to row T till nxt NKM... last sun, brian oso told mi dat he becoz i alumni he will put mi on the last list.. i am oso ok though i had to admit i wanted to row K... but yeah i agreed...

but now the issue is... they(yr 1) dun wan us to row.. dun wan to gif us slot... and yeah collin was sms mi saying they are not targetting mi.. but does that matters? coz lex is alumni so is mi so is dennis so is bernard so is anyone grad...i feel the same as lex.. we wanted to compromise and haf a slot to row ... but it juZ happen..so all alumnis are affect... of course i noe nt directed at mi... but its directed at alumni and i am like representative for alumni so wats the diff.

anyway i will pei lex finish his last race.. this i have decided.. and leaving nacc is oso decided.... yest 3am the vice-capt send mi a sms saying eh hope i wun quit dun wana lose a gd senior or rower... sendin this msg at this time on a trg camp... seriously i felt glad.. but i tink i still wont change my mind.... coz the hurt is done.. You noe its like i fall in love wif a gal.. and we got tgt... den one day she betray mi.. i decide to break up.. the gal later apologise... but the feeling is gone ler could nvr love her back anymore.. so i can be not angry anymore.. i can be not mad at anyone anymore but i will also not go back anymore...

anyway alot ppl been asking to move on from nacc.. i wanted to even yrs back.. but i feel so attach to this team.. i cant.. i say i want to leave a couple of times but i juz couldnt.. this attachment keeps pulling mi back... but now different ler... the attachment is broke ler... i can really leave now ler.... i tink this is the best for mi oso ba...if not 3 yrs later after i grad from SIM i still cant move on.. so now i finally can pls be happy from mi i can break free ler..

anyway yest nite when i was damn sad... and anger.. alot of ppl asking to come back.. and stuffs.. onli one guy call PEH WEIJIE.. my army fren... now school mate in SIM he told mi, "congrates man.. u finally quit"... this fucker saying this sentence ... really make mi luff...

anyway.. some ppl oso tell mi join cont to train and trash them hard show them blabla in race.... but.. ya i will cont to row with lex till he enlist.. but i dun really care i win anot alreadi.. in the past i wanted to train hard wanted to win is becoz i wanted np to show results for equipments.. i oso wanted recognition from the team to satisfy my own ego.. and wanted to push my passion to a higher level..

but now i dun feel the nid to show any results for np... i dun oso nid the recognition from the team anymore, i will cont this final as my passion and with lex passion..

And quite feeling sorry for them who juz grad.. i alreadi exceed my rowing yrs ler.. but them they juz grad onli...so i hope they can cont their passion in NTU... i tink i wont be able to fulfill this dream of tryin for nats team ler.. but even i can cont i dun tink my chance is high oso...so i hope they will fulfill this dream for mi.. :) they haf my blessings....same for the dragon batch ppl who haf the aim of getting in... hope they can do it i gif them my blessings too..

but not rowing for np anymore doesnt mean i am not rowing anymore if there is an alternatives i will definitely cont.. and mi quiting doesnt mean i wont go out wif those ppl i consider as teammates, they are not onli my teammates.. they are all to mi lifetime friends...

hope everyone will respect my decision.. and gimme blessings... i will definitely leave nacc ler.. i dun tink it will change...

anyway after this week, i dun wana bring this issue up anymore... this sun will be the last sun trg i attend as an np alumni rower.. maybe i will turn up maybe i wont.. see how first. but i hope this issue wont affect the current team.. although it does.. but hope it will be cleared soon.

the team still haf to work on team bonding.. a team nids to haf bond.. wif bond in a team u find lifetime frens.. wifout bond... u all are juz trg machines... training for medals onli, even keep winning medals oso no meaning... after grad.. everyone become hi bye frens and by the time u noe it u see no meaning in this thing called team... no one will remember wat medals u won before.. but ppl will remember how u make them feel...ppl wont remeber ur name becoz u won tis medal... but ppl will remeber ur name if u once pull them up when they fall, seriously who can remeber the medals i haf won these 2 yrs.. i doubt any....i am oso nt bother by it juz stating an example so pls cont to work hard on team bond.

ok another long essay tonite.. byebye gd nitez

2007-03-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

today had a big issue...
back grd of the story is dat... now dat we = alumni and new alumni... or ok juz mi.. i alreadi can get some medals wif T alreadi.. at first when ppl ask to upgrade to T i was saying until i can get medals on T i will nvr upgrade.. so after the last NKM dat marks the 3rd medal for T n so.. i decide it was time for mi to upgrade... and den the rest of the alumni wanted to learn K n haf a try in the last compy before they enlist... but of course.. equipment is priority goes to the members.. i haf totally no issue wif this..

so we willing to compromise and brian agreed to let us row on days dat didnt clash wif their trg.. i am willing to compromise to the extend last sat and sun... i take T.. and use the K onli after they finish wat they doing...

the big issue comes today.. the juniors ( now yr 1 ggin yr 2 ) dun welcome alumnis to row at all. Were able to tok about this issue is even becoz brian is ard wan us to tok thru this problem...
though the yr1 didnt say infront of mi they dun welcome mi.. but the reason they gif is sooo obvious anyone will see it.. 1st reason is ... now holidays brian open slot on tuesday , friday 2 slots, sat for attachment rowers and sun.. so they say its not ok for us to haf slot becoz they nid to train on other days too...

wat the fuck they dare to use this as an excuse.. now holiday the 3 slots attendance alreadi like shit... when school reopens in 2-3 weeks time.. they still can row everyday? so i ask them when sch reopen.. they will turn up for those days??? cannot ans! den immedidatly tok about key...
saying we no key... lex willing to step back.. ask them they we row for soo long ler cannot trust us wif key meh?? nth to say .. den say too mani key ard.... WAT THE FUCK! no nid to tink of so much lame excuses ... anyway am damn piss off , it alreadi hit my ultimate limit alreadi, i had to walk off... n i did.. nvr been so angry b4....

I do not with issues wif brian at all he is still a great fren to mi... trying to sort things out.. in a nice way he is juz stuck in between...its not the issue if i row K or row T now, its juz the issue wif some yr1 who do not welcome us... i totally see no pt in staying anymore...

I hope they know during weiqiang era when paddles nt enuff canoes nt enuff.... and cher rate is high for equipment rent.. so decide to push for paddles, new K, and new life vest.... but the sch reply is wana see results.. when wq got drunk he even ask.. how to make to team prosper... and so we fucking train so hard trying to see results.. those ppl from wq batch. jaime .. ppl from lex batch... dennis, bernard and all,.. and of course the dragon babies chin chong jiaying brian they all every one fucking train so hard trying to prove to school the one doing all the fighting for the equipements. Lex and chin chong PUSHING so hard for the K.... who are those ppl using equipments dat we fought hard for... they came in got paddle, got boat... and now cher dun charge the sch for equipment.... they are using things dat their alumnis and seniors fought hard for... be thankFUL!

Chin chong and brian told mi they tok to them alreadi.. and willing to compromise but i dun see the point anymore... even i stay it will onli be a yr once ur batch grad it will back to the same issue... chin chong haf a point when he says he wont let this happen and comm is selected by him.. but even lex who step down gloriously as a president haf no power no say in this issue... n those who raise up these issue are the ones who will be definitely taking charge of the club nxt yr.. it definitely doesnt solve any problem..

in the 1st place... come the issue wif mixing wif seniors is sucking up to them...
now dun welcome alumni to row...

wats nxt...

anyway though brian and chin chong make arrangement for us to cont row and lex hope i could pei him row... i nid to decide whether to continue anot... but definitely i am quiting already.. they already say out ler ... its like water splash u cant retrieve.. i cannot see my self rowing wif the yr 1 juniors anymore... even if i agree to cont row wif lex... i will quit NACC afterwards... i amy be rowing wif other or wat i donno but no longer np... there is no point staying anymore..

IT is really nice rowing wif the dragon babies.. they were juz fun and fun...and the dragon babies batch seniors were all veri motivating and full of fun... i really enjoy these few yrs rowing for nacc... i feel proud wearing those singlet that we wore to competition wif them... and seriously now i feel kinda disgusted wearing dat black and red singlet... anyway...

bye...

2007-03-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

Was doing research on my grp assignment and found this meaningful sentence which i would like to share..

" HArdship in training is essential because it builds confidence in peoples ability to persist through adversity into victory. Fun and revelry are important, because they enabled people to get to noe each other in a very transparetn way and thus build the camaraderie that is so essential to teamwork.. " --> this sentence juz hightlights the importance of training tgt and ggin out tgt..

Roobie Loomis , a successful NASCAR racer crew chief says' l like to use the analogy that when things are working well if one person spills a drink a teammate will jump down and start cleaning it up and another one will run and get another soda. Thats whats its about. And about selecting people for the team, he says its important to pick people of strong character who will be willing to work with th other personalities in the group. ---> this simply says... a team cannot haf selfishness everyone must be able to accept each other and help each other... not be selfish some ppl when washing boat likes to stand ard doing nth... disappearing when everyone is washing the equipments and i realised its always the same few ppl... and some others who nvr push trolley...

His personal philosophy with team is : If you "work hard give much, and expect little, good things will come your way.
(Ellis.L, 2003) hahaha after quoting so much from the book muz gif the author credits else i will be plagarising... :P:P

2007-02-28T15:43:00.000+08:00

hmm nth to do...

2007-02-27T02:28:00.001+08:00

congrates on the new committe.. agm is normal.. nth special... villa bali trip is oso normal nt as fun as last yr.... nt everyone turn up.... and they arranged separated seats.. boring... but been a long tme since i drank so much..

ok anyway sunday dinner... was suppose to be a meaningful reunion dinner.. but it turns out rather no meaning to mi at all was hoping to see more of my own batch de teammates.. well despite all the smses i send out... some didnt even wan to reply mi.. some reply tell mi they coming but once n once again.. at the veri last min they done it again pissing mi off by pangseh mi fly my aeroplane... i said it once i said it again.

IF YOU NOT INTERESTED PLS DO NOT PROMISE MI ANYTHING IN THE FIRST PLACE AND DUN TURN UP!! WORST IS DUN EVEN INFORM MI!!!!.. and for those who dun even reply my sms IF YOU NOT INTERESTED IN ANY OUTING LET MI NOE... I WONT SMS U AGAIN!! AT LEAST REPLY! its enuff.... for the past few yrs its always lidat...

talk abit about the past... how we used trained and survived so mani tough trainings and tough times tgt and how bonded we are dat makes mi wana cont to row to find dat feeling... doesnt dat all mean anything to u ppl??? i nvr even bug u all to come back row ... i juz wan to haf a reunion... where i can see everyone... my teamates ... and again n again n again n again... i get this kind of shit... sorry for xinyu, cuicai, lionel, dong that turn up and discovered dat onli so few ppl turn up.... fine i'm tired...

anyway whens normal trainnig gona resume???... still dun see any updates on any canoe blog... and no news from the new captain... maybe the training alreadi start wifout mi noeing... who noes....

anyway i hope this new work year.... the team will cont to prosper and shine...

lastly i hope everyone to bond....

2007-02-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

wah wat a wonderful CNY but juz like every yr lor... hehehe.. munching all the titbits non-stop.. yah i really mean non-stop. and i ate super lots of prawns this yr *slurps.... when i'm at home i am heavily tied down by my gundam seed destiny... been watching till late nites since CNY eve.. :P

ok.. havent seen my ang bao count , but haha its ok... Its weird dat my relatives keep asking mi about my gf.. some how the first thing they will say when see mi.. when i say i dun haf gf they somehow dun believe n some wana insist i haf... omg..... -.-

anyway happy CNY everyone hahaah!

2007-02-11T21:42:00.001+08:00

an update...

2007-02-05T23:44:00.000+08:00

today i run under the damn hot sun at 12pm again.. condition was better today.. although still feel out of breath but was better den last friday...trying my best to run at the limit dat if i exceed dat i will fall slowly slowly extend dat limit.. why? putting my myself in bad conditions to better condition my body so dat sth dat happen that time will not happen again...

though nth happen during the actual race but... donno... after dat incident i really felt sth diff.. i get breathless more easily now... so i nid to run more to get the stamina and endurance back... i love to train but am getting sick of gyming sessions hurhur... i rather run do circuits pull ups and of course row.. i hope i can row this week.. 2 week of not rowing is really too much... every thing will lost touch.. watever train over the months will come to waste... all keyholders.. beware coz i gona psycho you!!

anyway alot of ppl after the marathon saying they are motivated this motivated dat? but how long will dat motivation last? They come right after competition and dies off veri fast.. words are not being put into action enuff.. as always.. i'm guilty of that too seriously..

we muz constantly keep ourself motivated but... to be motivated there muz be a goal.. and to haf a goal.. that goal when accomplish will satisfy a need. the neeed to improve ? the need to win medals? the need to perform?.. hehe but well if u juz love to row ignore wat i haf all said.. juz come down join everyone on ur free time and enjoy this passion of rowing tgt seriously :D:D. I love ppl wif the passion to row.. :D coz i like to row too. joining competition is juz to satisfy my own ego hahaha..

For others who keep saying wana win pls juz train hard there is no short cut to it.. RP a new canoe club is hafin 3 sea slot every week on a non-competition season.. not dat i wana compare but for those who wana be veri competitive wif other schs.. rowing at least twice is veri veri important.. if u onli aim to row once every week... den taking breaks at some weeks dat u dun even appear at all.. i can confirm + chop.. every comps u will onli be rowing for experience...and dats fine if u juz wana enjoy rowing... so anyway.. everyone lets juz constantly remind each other.. motivate each other push them to do wat they say... especially the K rowers.... on the day of moving of equipments to seletar, the team got 5 K rowers but onli 1 turn up to pick up equipments.. still got ppl havent pick up his paddle or lifevest.. for like since.. from the sunday till the sat .. not treating this compy serious at all.. and trainings.. always row onli once per week.. where still veri veri veri buay zai.. n worst sometimes that once per week oso cannot make it.. I not a K rower but i still can over take when i row K?? some even couldnt win my T??? this shldnt be happening at all.. but it all happen becoz nvr train enuff..

alot may say becoz i row for soo long ler.. and dat precisely why! yes i am better becoz i row more times den everyone..when i first join i was a terrible rower i haf no talents inrowing at all.. alot of u i see really got the talents so everyone juz nid to row more.. and i wont be the better one alreadi.. ok guess i am done.. i hope the grads will still come back to push.. though the marathon haf shown nt bad results.. but.. the training attitude is veri wrg alreadi... i rather everyone got lousy results but the correct mentality..

these are the the tots i plan to say.. after the marathon too bad there is no debrief so i haf tink for a loong time and decided to blog it down.

2007-02-05T23:35:00.000+08:00

some tots to share.. but..
i tink better not..

byebye gd nitez

2007-02-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

hmmm .. i sometimes still do wonder, still ask myself is it really ok to continue coming back to row? using sch equipment..den other ppl cant use? like a freeloader.. but in the end i am still back.. i juz cant seem to stop.. i dun wan to stop rowing but where can i row??... SIM can u buy boats?? pls... i promise i will train hard...

ok.... emos emos emos emos

2007-01-24T21:01:00.000+08:00

sUper FOul mood today.. will elaborate later anyway finally got things i wana blog.. so it will be an looong entry..

WIll start from Friday Training camp(planned by lex).. i haf been looking forward to it soo much.. and yeah it turns out to be really fun.. we had a fun run to orchard. Luckily god is nice to us.. nvr rain.. we stopped outside lido. Den later walk to far east to get water..

After getting water we went to the bus stop to wait for Bus 171 but wat the heck its sooo full. den junhan suggested dat we go further down to newton.. more bus availble for us to take.. so we walk quite a distance and still havent reach.. den we saw bus 171 quite empty and we all dash like mad to the bus stop finally manage to get up the bus.. ANd yeah we stink the whole bus.

After alighting we immediately hit the track and did 520 pushup. (dennis bday xtra 20) dat beats the record of 517 pushup which we hit last yr on jiaying bday.. after dat everyone is really too tired to sabo dennis so we juz went to shower and eat the ah neh food for dinner. after dinner i finish one litre of milk on my own. Went back to the rm watch jack arse and went to slp.

Woke up the next morning go support all the sprinters for the x-campus race.Yeah lex sign them all up.. hurhur cool shit rite. NACC swept away lots of medal from the np student open. GReat job.. after i went to class and left the camp.

At nite reunite wif the rest at regina bday... the ambience of teh pub is quite nice.. and the food regina order is nice too.. i'm sorry i am soo hungry dat i had 2 servings.. am craving for the 3rd one though.. had some fun nice seeing wq,yiwei and kimhui.. the team b4 last agm is really wonderful ( wat has happen ar?)

Sunday went down to row clemence nt feeling well so i rowed single.. is okie.. but feeling tired.. becoz am still haf some fear dat happen 2 weeks ago.. i guess it really kinda affect mi somehow.. i haf some mental barrier to overcome somehow.. but well i am still quite confident in rowing single. We had combined trg wif the whole nyjc team. One gal on T1 she is damn fast and guess wat.. she is using a brac 2 paddle.. and she is not big size okie.. its all about how you row and not about the paddle. Afer dat we did capsize drill and mass capsize drill damn fun.. after we hit back on land. we did cool down tgt.. Den nyjc + np we did the cheer.. morale was damn high. i love it lots.. and dats ends the wonderful wkend.. hmm not soo wonderful i like overspent..

Ran to school on monday.. coz whole day no class.. den hit the gym do onli 2 sets went to meet lex and gang and go home at night went to the kopitiam to help clean the fliters.. damn dirty can... but ish okie lar.. for juz 2-3 hrs $40 its gd.. i dun mind.. juz nid to earn some $$$$. went home do business stats till 4am den go to slp

Tuesday afternoon class business stats. wake up 930 cont do.. den go class.. the lecturer is damn funni ... was basically luffin our way thru.. am motivated to score high for this subject. After class went to do pull up. i did 50 den we hit the library to do our bus stats.. yeah this week all biz stats becoz onli got biz stats lecter this wk.

Anyway sheri hafin this dance performance at SMU nxt friday 1-2hr performance... asked mi to go support.... anyone interested can come wif mi.. its free okie.. ppl trained hard everyday.. so i will try to make it go down and support though i may not noe anyting about it.

Wednesday.

Today is a fuck up day... Woke up drank my milo and bread slacked online for awhile, went to sch do my maths. Been sneezing and sneezing while i was doing.. damn tulan..hungry + sneezing = tired and hungry( i onli had bread n milo for breakfast okie) and tulan. den do until 4pm dun wan to do anymore went down to lifestyle library slack. more of rest.. coz really dun feel really well.. was waiting for elva coz dk nid to borrow her student card to lend books.. she say dat some1 is suppose to come oso at 5pm to get some books.. so i called the fucker for her.. the fucker was slping and said he not coming and when i said den why u tell elva u coming, den u nvr come why nvr say ps kia. Den this fucker shouted at mi over the fone dat who he told wat he said.. I was super damn pissed off scolded him and hang up.. FUCKER!

Went to training, jeremy not here yet so asked bernard to lead first of course mah he is the most senior student. Den dk gave suggestion to bernard he agreeed.. den split them into 2 grps ask them to gather at the track.. everynoe still gifing so much comments this and dat.. dun wana move.. den finally moved den move so unwillingly.. wat the fuck.. everyone see bernard nice wana eat him wana bully him ar narbei??? Am hungry tired and pissed off + this kind of shit i haf been enduring still puting on a normal face n nt shouting at anyone.. den jeremy reach i asked him to take over. n so we went to run.

After run the later grp is doing cool down den the grp that finish 1st was sitting at the track. when jeremy said to gather at the gym 5 mins later.. its like no one ans him or did they even hear him? coz they dun look as though they heard... he repeated himself like 2-3 times.. 2nd time i almost explode but am stil controlling.. so went outside the gym and wait.. mi and jeremy waited like FUCKing more 10mins..ok those return later weree excus doing cool down can bed. but still... nvm i can still see someone go into the swimming pool and come out wif a packet of soya bean???? wtf fuck haf training end?? who the fuck said can go buy drinks ???? maybe now the culture haf changed? i dono? i apologise for this post if they are allowed to buy drinks during trg now.

Well wat i wanted to say its if anyone not interested in trging.. den dun even turn up on wednesday.. juz say u got exam or assgment den fuck off no one will even care dun show such attitude when u come to trg. no wonder i heard ppl say canoist no discilpline damn sad to hear this kind of comments..

jeremy trying to split them up oso so much comments ai mai ai mai.. i decide to do myself.. still enduring trying veri hard nt to say shout.. tok to dk about how i feel he asked mi to relax.. yeah den i tink about it ok true.. this sunday compy.. trg shld be slack okie so i cont to do myself.. i nvr increase the weights coz am feelnig hungry + tired = no strenght.. so every sets i did my 1st set weights den go the rowing machine row for 2km for 2 sets.. den everyone left..

went to change.. slack at the snack bar.. wanted to eat really veri hungry onli had bread+milo whole day since morning..so i wanted to go eat wif bel they all.. addie kept asking mi to go home i dono why!, den dk wanted to leave alreadi he is getting impatient ler he alreadi stand up wana go liao tell mi everyone veri slow.. den addie still eating nid to wait for her.. (PS. i seriously nvr hear u asking mi to wait or say wanted to return .. yes u said it b4 trg started but not when we were at snacked bar

enuff SUPER PISSED OFF!!!!!!! alreadi.. snowballed!!! liao i stand up and juz walk away wif dk!! came home cook maggi eat FUCK! cant be bothered anymore narbei.. today juz sux lar.. meeting liangcheng to row tml morning hope tml will be a better day..
Am sorry if i pissed anyone off today, today is juz not the day.. yeah so am sorry.. but try nt to further irritate mi at least for today.. i explode liao..

ANd ok i haf been stressing myself everyday since dat incident happened.. it really kinda get it to mi.. it has become a mental barrier i donno how i shld row although got alot of advice from mani ppl.. ok i shld stop being so negative... i shld jiayou everyone shld jiayou.. Yr3 dennis, lex, and especially bernard. Yr 2 jeremy and collin. Yr1 alvin. 6 of u are potential medalist holder this marathon i really looking forward to see gd results from them.. for the rest.. elva try ur best to complete this race.. u wont forget it for the rest of ur life.. and for junhan.. he always started veri gd but ending always kena eat.. he has the big potiential oso.. but nid to train up or concentrate more on endurance and stroke ler.. for the rest JIAYOU! go down n enjoy the row ( who am i kidding man saying this while mi myself is over stressed out)

and yeah for jiaying she nvr really trained oso and now i had the mental barrier like u damn it... but den lets both jiayou.. we muz make it.. till the end, and get a bling bling. . and break this barrier..

SIGN OFF
(enjoying my FUCKIng instant noodle CB! at this FUCKUP DAY)

2007-01-14T21:48:00.000+08:00

well today sea training.. started off with the run.. i came back first wining bernard.. the best runner currently in the team... everything was well damn fine.. except for the body ache dat most ppl still suffered from wed circuit.

after warm up we got down to sea.. 1st time rowing T2 wif clemence.. 1st time rowing T2 for long D. and first time competing in T2 wif mi as a front person. every thing was great.. we had a gd start onli losing to the K2's.

1st rd getting out of shears bridge. K2 got hooked to fishing line Capsized. we stop rescue. we were leading the rest by some distance. however the rescueing causes us to be overtaken by almost all on he losing end alreadi.. Was abit demoralise, clemence encouragment. and i woke up my idea and started started command on our boat.. we over took every one back one by one.. at ard the beginning of 2nd rd. We proceed well.

At the start 3rd rd fatigue starts to kick in.. i feel dehyadrated? weird eh.. it was raining.. the weather is cold and i felt so dehydrated?.. but well i still pushed on.. at ard near shears bridge i felt like stopping alreadi.. felt soo shagged. but i noe cant stop, n so i stopping toking to clemence.. but he still keeping on encouraging mi, wifout noeing wat happenen.

Finally finish the row in the super cold weather my body started to get numb at 1000m.. yeah even we were rowing it felt soo cold.. anyway str after finishing i drank immediately.. and i had to close my eyes. i juz felt soo exhausted. my body juz couldnt take it fingers are numb legs are numb, face felt numb too. den elva and clemence see dat i quite off and ferry mi back to the shore. i force my last bit of strenght to bring the canoe back.. and juz fell on the benches.. i donno why??? i felt so exhausted? so exhausted i couldnt stand up and keep my eyes open and i juz had to lie down to rest my body..recover myself bit by bit.. lex passed mi some water but i juZ lie there.. i juz find no strenght to move myself.. den later eugene company mi back to the shack.. yeah nice of him.. reaching the shack i still felt sooooo exhausted .. i sit down and close my eyes and rest again... and i donno? izzt dennis or chin chong or eugene who got mi dat 100 plus?.. well it helped thanks alot...

i really donno why i hit the limit of my physical today? the training is quite normal? and yes i felt veri hungry becoz i nvr ate breakfast but i everytime training oso nvr ate.. last week was even worst.. i didnt even slp. and after rowing 4 rds... i still lead by alot.. onli losing to one nyjc T2. and still hyper n fit to jump ard run ard and attend shaofeng wedding..

the first day i join nacc.. i nvr reach this state like wat happened today at all?? i really really really donno why??? i am lidat today? i'm sure i had physical exhaustion today.. but i i had more tough trainings den today but it nvr happened like wat happened today?.. today is juz sooo terrible?? will it happen again??? nxt week?

damn it ...!!

2007-01-08T15:57:00.000+08:00

Stress and depression can afflict anyone, and it can be especially tough to handle when it's our loved one who's suffering. When it seems all our words and deeds do nothing to assuage their misery, we ourselves can feel helpless and desperate.

If you're living with a loved one who's under severe stress or suffering from depression, remember that recovery is a journey; it's a work in progress, so if improvement does not seem apparent, don't be disappointed. No matter how useless you may be feeling, your loved one appreciates your support and listening ear.

Every comforting or encouraging word is helpful, but however frustrated you feel, never say to a depressed or stressed person: "Come on, snap out of it! What have you got to be worried or sad about anyway? People have it much worse than you!"

Understand that these words are easy enough for you to say, but for a stressed or depressed person, they can seem as though you're trivializing their condition, making them seem weak for not being able to "snap out" of such a petty state. Severe stress and chronic depression are illnesses. You wouldn't tell someone with high blood pressure or pneumonia to "snap out" of their condition, would you?

Also, try as much as possible not to impose advice or your own analysis or knowledge of the problem onto your loved one. Your suggestions may be in the best interest, but to the sufferer, it can sound confrontational. This may put him or her under pressure. All they'll do is dismiss your comments and clam up whenever you're around as they'll feel they're being scrutinised.

A better way is to challenge them very gently by reminding them of a time when they did something good. For example, when you hear your loved one say: "I'm useless, I never get anything right.", you can say "Sure you do, hey, remember the time when you did this??"

Finally, you may find a resource - a book, a video, or supplement that you think will help someone to beat their illness. But you must resist the urge to directly give them these resources. For someone to emerge from these illnesses, they have to make the decision themselves. A direct offer will more often than not be refused. So, if you find something you think will help, leave it lying around somewhere your loved one will find it. Such an indirect approach is more effective because once again, there is no pressure, no reminder, no confrontation. It is the sufferer who takes a willing first step towards recovery.

2006-12-14T16:44:00.000+08:00

白色的风车
White windmill
安静的纯真
Silent sincerity
真实的感觉
True feelings
梦境般遥远
Dreamland is a bit far

甜甜的海水
Sweet seawater
复杂的眼泪
Complicated tears
看你傻笑着
Seeing you giggling
握住我的手
Holding my hand

梦希望没有尽头
Hope the dream does not end
我们走到这就好
Walking up to this point is good enough
因为我不想太快走完这幸福
Because I don't want to finish walking through this happiness too fast
很可惜没有祝福
It's too bad we don't have others' blessings
但爱你并不孤独
but loving you isn't lonely at all
不会再让你哭
I won't let you cry anymore

我陪你走到最后
I'll accompany you until the end
能不能不要回头
Can you try not to turn back?
你紧紧地抱住我
You tightly hold me
说你不需要承诺
and say you don't need promises
你说我若一个人会比较自由
You say I would be more free if I were on my own
我不懂你说什么
I don't understand what you're saying
反正不会松手
In any case, I won't let go of your hand

我陪你走到最后
I'll accompany you until the end
能不能别想太多
Can you try not to think too much?
会不会手牵着手
Will we, hand in hand,
晚一点再到尽头
reach the end a little later?
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
You say we shouldn't meet each other again just for one moment
谢谢你让我听见
Thank you for letting me hear that
因为我在等待永远
Because I am waiting for 'forever'

2006-12-08T10:25:00.000+08:00

hmm?? is it a hint???? or am i juz tinking too much????

i really donno... pls dun be hope i am juz tinking too much....

2006-11-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

Wat is ggin to happen to the sprinting team nxt yr when the current yr 3 elites.. dennis lex bernard cheng and clemence grad???

the yr 2 seniors now who will become the yr3 nxt yr ,will the most senior in the team...will be the elites will be the fastest rowers in representing np in sprinting.. but ??..

onli left alfred, brian, chin chong, ethan jeremy.. note i left samuel out.. u all shld noe y.. i oso left collin out coz his attendance is quite poor.. and he nvr mixed ard or bond wif juniors.. den now ethan got prob may be quiting.. jeremy wana step down... donno he will still stay anot... den wat left alfred brian and chin chong???

And among the 3 chin chong will be the most dependable... but need to brush up his skills alot alot alot alfred not veri bond wif the juniors too and brian veri veri gym..so how?? is the team gona die nxt yr???

I been in this team for about 6 yrs???... from a Fuckup junior become a senior den become an alumni den to become seeing junior join become senior den alumni... most of my happy times is spent here... i value this team alot alot...i hope it wont die off

2006-11-23T19:32:00.000+08:00

wooo i nid to tok cock to strangers... nid to build rapport with them nid then nid to do presentation to them.... but first i nid to stop them n find a reason to tok to them.... er abit hard for mi hahaha i not a veri outggin person to tok to stranger but i believe its good to accquire such skills.. in the the future no matter wat i do i will be able to speak fluently... muz jiayou

2006-11-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

Ok nvr really got the pics but well its an update..

I will not update about pangarang first..

Sat.

Woke up damn early.. den went to SDBA to collect our lifevest.. so tired lor in the end slp in the train.. quite happy when i reach there .. some of them were alreadi there and some LATE!.. but well haha was kinda excited..

We reach OUB building and almost every team is there.. occupying every little space.. in the end we settle ourself beside my future sch SIM.

Our race is the early few so nt long after den we register and started to board our boats.. stil feeling excited.. and thanks to the np dragonboaters they ask us to jiayou while walking pass as they know we r from nacc ba...

Our 1st heats will be a veri tough one.. becoz we race with SPC and canadians dragons before.. and we lost to them like 1-3 boat length.. the other 2 teams were TP and SMU.. the race started actually i oso dont know how we did coz i nvr look at the sides.. i juz concentrate on my stroke and the counting.. In the end we lost.. we got 5th.. but was okie coz i tink we did nt bad as we did not lost to them by a few boat length.. it was split seconds lost..

But later heard form jiaying who was at the judge stand.. saying that we were like leading 2-3rd place like all the way until last we lost during the charging part.. damn abit ai wan.. but nvm coz the seat is quie slippery some of them slip away a few times if minus those accident we could haf done well... but wif those accident i still tink we did nt bad..

ok newae its end of our DB race.. was getting quite sick of rowing dragonboat alreadi actually but i was veri motivate to row during the compy okie.. haha ok but was so happy dat am ggin back to canoe alreadi no more DB.. but i ggin to start work quite soon ler.. how long will i be able to still stay on?????????????????????????

Will update about the helpout and sunday at a later date..

2006-10-20T13:35:00.000+08:00

okie.. today ggin to chalet, might stay till.... monday? haha the chalet will last till monday.. den after which will be ggin to malaysia Pengarang.. wif the lovely team..respectable coach, hehe first time go overseas wif them.. normally teh furthest we go is southern island.. i am sure n will be pretty sure dat it is gona be super duper fun.

So meanwhile will be away lor...

P.S. stupid cow haha we will somehow arrange our movie and shop outing lar hahaha.. meanwhile tok to him man... dun always see see see :P

2006-10-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

Admission to SIM

TOday i received the letter from SIM, its a confirmation dat my application is a success. I shld be happy like donghan, who sms us to tell us the news.. i wanted to be happy like him too, but its has come to the point that i haf to make the decision.

I'm sure those close to mi de would noe, My plan is to get bank loan, however my parents object to the idea of getting the bank loan, my dad says he wana help mi to pay the school fee, but i dont wan to use their $$. So the problem is 1)i wana get get loan but parents dun allow 2) Dad wana help mi pay sch fees but i dun wana use their $$, there is no room for compromising at all.

And i have no choice, and dat leaves mi onli 1 solution, i pay off the 1st sem wif my own savings. $5200++. And i had to work super hard to earn my 2nd sem school fee by june.

If all goes well, i will able to start my work as a financial adviser in mid november, n i will haf to commit 100% to this work. As the income is recurring, if i am able to earn my school fee by june, i will be able to earn for all whole 3 yrs of study.

Well kinda sad, but.... 1 mths from now, i will be leaving the canoeing club, leave as in i dun tink i will be able to join every1 for their outings anymore, i dun even noe if i can go for training.. :( but definitely no more outing.

A number of events is coming up so suddenly.. this friday to monday will be yixin bday chalet, den every tues thurs and sun we will haf our dragonboating training, apart from our regular canoe trainings. then 23rd to 24th we all will be travelling to malaysia wif cher, 27th our team nite cycling, den 2 days b4 my birthday the singapore river regatta. which is our 1st attempt in dragon boating.

Sometimes i do wonder the sudden outburst of this event izzt becoz... it meant my last mth wif them.. the team which i value alot more den everything.. since the day i joined this team in 2001.

2007 i will be offically in school.. den my time will be committed to my studies, work and preparation in starting my SIM canoe club.. my time as gd as == zero.

Some may say i shld gif up sth, n of course i dun even nid to ask everyone will be asking mi to stop canoeing.

but.. studying is a muz = i cant gif it up, work is oso a muz = i cant gif it up lasty canoeing is my onli passion n interest dat is left == if i gave i am as gd as a zombie..

And so.. the onli thing left is will be spending less time or zero time wif all my buddies and friends.. i really hope dat i dun lose any frens along the way, and becoz of my job nature, am prepared to be avoid by some though i alreadi make clear my stand dat frens n familys will not be my target. The perception of a financial adviser in singapore is juz too bad, this is nt to be blamed coz i had this perception too b4 i decide to join this line.

Well to all my friends, if it really happens dat i "disappeared", It is definitely not wat i wanted, and watever i do be it studying or at work, i will not forget all the happy and memorable times i spend with everyone these yrs, mths, days.

:):):):)

ok will update about last sat steve bday when i get the pics.

2006-10-16T13:36:00.000+08:00

Last Day of work

Last Sat was my last day of work... the company planed to go eat hokkaido hotplate and every1 is meeting at 8pm.

so afterwork 6pm mi n patsy went to orchard to shop shop.. we went to taka.. she bought cards and help the company to buy cakes for our duo celebration.

This is the name of the cake shop... she says the cake here veri nice de especially this chocolate cake.. dat i must try it :D

yup this is the cake really really veri veri nice..

after buy cakes and cards.. we walk ard.. den pass by tis royce choc shop.. and wah stunned she bought mi a box of royce choc as farewell present.. as i like to eat choc.. hurhur damn paiseh... her wedding i must buy her a wonderful gift ler.. :P

oh den we slowly walk and tok to paradiz center, oh finally reach.. the shop is called Juju hokkaido hotpot.

the food quite nice and the service is damn gd, they will demo how to eat their foods ... ok will let the picture do the toking now

The condiments in the restaurant

Starters.. middle is a70% cooked egg. the sides are kimchi and donno wat?

Beef Set

Chicken set

Seafood set

I love Gatecrash.. they motivate mi alot.. though nt every1's present.. but thanks to all veri veri sincerely THANKS! giving mi such chance to work and know everyone( newae i didnt noe shireen dad is a m1n1ster, who is the spe@ker of p@rli@ment, while joe parents owner of sh@ngri-l@ and grand father is the 2nd richest man in m'sia.) surprised isnt it.. For their passion they are willing to work for wat they like instead of comfortably working with better positions in some higher places.. due to the the reputation their family has.. and definitely does not drive a super posh car and do not haf any air in them, juz like any humble ppl.. its really respectable, they are who they are and not wat their family backgrds are :)

And of course not to forget.. big thanks to jikai who taught be every thing patiently like a mentor though he is so busy... and alot alot to patsy, who treats mi the nicest in the company!!! :D

2006-10-12T17:42:00.000+08:00

oh newae seen this... see my de feel damn sad haiz.......

March 22nd ~March 31st = Purple
April 1st ~ April 10th = Navy
April 11th ~ April 20th = Silver
April 21st ~ April 30th = White
May 1st ~ May 14th = Blue
May 15th ~ May 24th = Gold
May 25th ~ June 3rd= Cream
June 4th ~ June 13th = Grey
June 14th ~ June 23rd = Maroon
June 24th = Grey
June 25th ~ July 4th = Red
July 5th ~ July 14th = Orange
July 15th ~ July 25th = Yellow
July 26th ~ August 4th = Pink
August 5th ~ August 13th = Blue
August 14th ~ August 23rd = Green
August 24th ~ September 2nd = Brown
September 3rd ~ September 12th = Aqua
September 13th ~ September 22nd = Lime
September 23rd = Olive
September ! 24th ~October 3rd = Purple
October 4th ~ October 13th = Navy
October 14th ~ October 23rd = Silver
October 24th ~ November 11th = White
Novem! ber 12th ~ November 21st = Gold
November 22nd ~ December 1st = Cream
December 2nd ~ December 11th = Grey
December 12th ~ December 21st = Maroon
December 22nd = Teal

*RED* Cute and lovable type, You are picky but always in love...and liked to be loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times.
Capable with people nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you are. Likes people that are easy to talk to and can make you feel comfortable.

*CREAM* Competitive and sportive. Don't like face=Arial>
*GREY* You are attractive and active. You never hide your feelings and express everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up someone's day. You know what to say at the right time and you have good sense of humor.

*GREEN* You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words...
You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are
single, waiting for the right person.

*GOLD* You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.

*PINK* You are always trying face=Arial>
*MAROON* You are intelligent and know what's right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you're patient when it comes to love. Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.

*ORANGE* You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals to reach and you really work hard to get there, you are competitive. Your friends are really important to you and you appreciate what you have. You sometimes over react because you are sensitive.

*PURPLE* You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood.
You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for a person size=2>in love easily. Sometimes get hurt by love.

2006-10-11T17:04:00.000+08:00

SIM Canoeing..

oh well, this is finally the final week of my work in Gatecrash. Will haf a loong lag time, tml we are ggin out for a dinner for my last day as well as daniel bday celebration..

anyway my sch starts Jan.. day by day my urge of wanting to setup the canoeing club is bigger n bigger..

I really wanted to do it.. Well starting nxt week i will be quite free alreadi, i will be starting to write proposals, tinking of plans of publicising.. how to psycho the sch to provide the cost.. and getting real figures for all the cost dat will incurred, rite now is all juz an estimate.. and maybe.. become an intern of lex, to see wat are the kind of things a club nids to be managed.. well.

I haf alreadi contacted several frens , mostly army.. who is alreadi been studying in SIM... i haf now ard 7-8 members ba.. if to say the sch agrees to let mi setup this club..

alot of thing nids to be done nids to be learn... i really really wanted to do it.. i hope everyone push mi in doing it.. wake up my idea if i slacken, or get demoralise and ggin to give up..

Den some ppl ask mi wat about the alumni team? well all i can say is.. though lex keep joking about mi being the president of nacc alumni.. but there isnt really any members if u see it... and its juz so unofficial thing.. and yeah another advantage dat will benefits if SIM canoeing is allowed.. it meant more canoes... and mi as an alumni.. i wont reject to any alumni in using the canoe.. so this issue is not really there..

OK so everyone pls gimme ur support... for this.. i really wanted it to happen this time.

oh anyway... to those who still doesnt know .. yah it almost quite confirm dat i am ggin work as a financial advisor yup will start work ard mid november if everything is smooth. SO dun be stun if you all saw mi at any mrt stations or roadshows. And there is no nid to shun away from me.. i wont call and bug u all to buy from me.. the company policy oso dun recommend us to sell to friends. If friends wana buy from you they will call u up de.. newae my advice to my friends is to buy only if u think u nid it.

ok sign off wish mi luck

2006-10-07T13:04:00.000+08:00

Thursday,

Today after work suppose to attend a orchestra conducted by my big boss, adrian.

the others left early so i walk to the area in front the baby face pub again.. coz its still too early.. kinda nice to be chillin there, feeling relax n peacefulness :D.

ok i went to the wrg place i went to victoria theatre instead of concert hall, wat the crap. i went first.. followed by patsy and derek, den shireen, joe his gf came in.. felina and doris were upstairs VIP i guess. Joe was shouting at every end of a piece haha like he is teh onli one making those noise.. enojy myself like the music.

and later shireen drove mi home..

Friday

today is lantern..

patsy gave mi a special mooncake.. wow the eggyoke is a chocolate instead. and inside the chocolate is rum i guess.. so nice.. i like it thanks alot.. didnt went out today went home early for family dinner instead. Nice dinner nice food i like. :D

newae weather is damn bad.. hopefully doesnt affect our training.

ok today is sat i slp till quite late now i ggin off ler will onli be back on sun nite dun miss mi too much okie.. yeah i know u all wont okie bye cya..

2006-10-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

TEARDROP IS BEAUTIFUL

LOVE is very strange. Love is unconditional commitment to an imperfect individual. You need it but when you love, it's like destining yourself for pain. You become addicted & dependent on the person. You become strong & at the same time, you OPEN yourself up to being HURT. Love can make you bear any kind of pain & any kind of SACRIFICE. It can also make you feel stupid & act stupidly.
Sometimes when you love & end up giving so much of yourself, subconciously you only discover how much you've given when the person you love hurts you or has to say goodbye. Then you realize, an important part of yourself is already with that person. It goes away when he leaves & you are left with a sickening, empty feeling inside. Tears are bound to shed from your eyes, no matter how you force yourself to keep them in. Well, that's what you get for caring so much about someone. But how can you regret it? To give yourself freely & lovingly is the most beautiful thing you can do. Most teardrops ever shed on this earth have been for love or lack of it.
When tears dry, a silent loss sticks to your heart for a long, long time. Loving makes you real. Loving also makes you cry. And that is why a teardrop is also BEAUTIFUL.Because it is real & it comes from within your heart & your emotions

#Cherish yesterdayDream tomorrowLive today#

2006-10-06T01:01:00.000+08:00

2006-10-02T17:18:00.000+08:00

Some Recently taken Photos( Click to enlarge ).

Post some fotos... things are different as u look at it now...

Its US and the dogs

The dogs and the ah beng ( i donno the ah beng )

Them

From Left Brian, Chin Chong and bernard

I tried to buried this small little thing

From left Jiaying, Geraldine, Serene , Elva

Our shadow (my idea)

Mi elva and weihong

clemence, geri, jeremy, alfred, ethan and lex.

Fondue at jiaying hse ( dennis and jiahui )

US making the fondue, ya the one wearing new urbun male is mi..

Host: Jiaying and elva

Our mash mellow chocolate fondue faces.. the big face on the left is mine

2006-10-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

Sunday Training

Today trainig was a diff one i took the new K1 today thanks to dennis who i tink kinda noe i wanted to row K1.. we nvr row in kalang today, we did all out row outside.. this is the first time all out training is outside.. and the rules is the last person of the category will do 20 pushup, capsize 30...

we did alot of sprints guess i won all.. but not a gd win.. i didnt haf the balance... in the end the lowest is 30 and the highest punishment is 170.. mi zero.. well i was lucky... i am still not there at all... nid to train even harder..

after training we did 300 pushup and off to KFC for our meal..