hmm i got High Distinction for my business statistic test... but dat onli forms 30% and it is an terrible easy paper so nth to be happy about tooo.. coz alot ppl gettin it too..

anyway... the previous post was post in an angry state.. now dat abit cool off... i tink.. i was wrg to juz walk off lidat yest... this attitude wrg...

anyway received alot of smses...

but i would like to say that its not the issue if i row K or dun row K... becoz if the main issue lies wif K i alreadi quited last yr ler... coz after round ubin i had plans to upgrade to K alreadi.. but dennis told mi dat.. he wans the K to let the juniors use.... he tok to mi how he felt wat he tinks..he dun mind mi using cher K but he wan the juniors to use sch K and i totally agree.. had no hard feeelings... and cont to row T till nxt NKM... last sun, brian oso told mi dat he becoz i alumni he will put mi on the last list.. i am oso ok though i had to admit i wanted to row K... but yeah i agreed...

but now the issue is... they(yr 1) dun wan us to row.. dun wan to gif us slot... and yeah collin was sms mi saying they are not targetting mi.. but does that matters? coz lex is alumni so is mi so is dennis so is bernard so is anyone grad...i feel the same as lex.. we wanted to compromise and haf a slot to row ... but it juZ happen..so all alumnis are affect... of course i noe nt directed at mi... but its directed at alumni and i am like representative for alumni so wats the diff.

anyway i will pei lex finish his last race.. this i have decided.. and leaving nacc is oso decided.... yest 3am the vice-capt send mi a sms saying eh hope i wun quit dun wana lose a gd senior or rower... sendin this msg at this time on a trg camp... seriously i felt glad.. but i tink i still wont change my mind.... coz the hurt is done.. You noe its like i fall in love wif a gal.. and we got tgt... den one day she betray mi.. i decide to break up.. the gal later apologise... but the feeling is gone ler could nvr love her back anymore.. so i can be not angry anymore.. i can be not mad at anyone anymore but i will also not go back anymore...

anyway alot ppl been asking to move on from nacc.. i wanted to even yrs back.. but i feel so attach to this team.. i cant.. i say i want to leave a couple of times but i juz couldnt.. this attachment keeps pulling mi back... but now different ler... the attachment is broke ler... i can really leave now ler.... i tink this is the best for mi oso ba...if not 3 yrs later after i grad from SIM i still cant move on.. so now i finally can pls be happy from mi i can break free ler..

anyway yest nite when i was damn sad... and anger.. alot of ppl asking to come back.. and stuffs.. onli one guy call PEH WEIJIE.. my army fren... now school mate in SIM he told mi, "congrates man.. u finally quit"... this fucker saying this sentence ... really make mi luff...

anyway.. some ppl oso tell mi join cont to train and trash them hard show them blabla in race.... but.. ya i will cont to row with lex till he enlist.. but i dun really care i win anot alreadi.. in the past i wanted to train hard wanted to win is becoz i wanted np to show results for equipments.. i oso wanted recognition from the team to satisfy my own ego.. and wanted to push my passion to a higher level..

but now i dun feel the nid to show any results for np... i dun oso nid the recognition from the team anymore, i will cont this final as my passion and with lex passion..

And quite feeling sorry for them who juz grad.. i alreadi exceed my rowing yrs ler.. but them they juz grad onli...so i hope they can cont their passion in NTU... i tink i wont be able to fulfill this dream of tryin for nats team ler.. but even i can cont i dun tink my chance is high oso...so i hope they will fulfill this dream for mi.. :) they haf my blessings....same for the dragon batch ppl who haf the aim of getting in... hope they can do it i gif them my blessings too..

but not rowing for np anymore doesnt mean i am not rowing anymore if there is an alternatives i will definitely cont.. and mi quiting doesnt mean i wont go out wif those ppl i consider as teammates, they are not onli my teammates.. they are all to mi lifetime friends...

hope everyone will respect my decision.. and gimme blessings... i will definitely leave nacc ler.. i dun tink it will change...

anyway after this week, i dun wana bring this issue up anymore... this sun will be the last sun trg i attend as an np alumni rower.. maybe i will turn up maybe i wont.. see how first. but i hope this issue wont affect the current team.. although it does.. but hope it will be cleared soon.

the team still haf to work on team bonding.. a team nids to haf bond.. wif bond in a team u find lifetime frens.. wifout bond... u all are juz trg machines... training for medals onli, even keep winning medals oso no meaning... after grad.. everyone become hi bye frens and by the time u noe it u see no meaning in this thing called team... no one will remember wat medals u won before.. but ppl will remember how u make them feel...ppl wont remeber ur name becoz u won tis medal... but ppl will remeber ur name if u once pull them up when they fall, seriously who can remeber the medals i haf won these 2 yrs.. i doubt any....i am oso nt bother by it juz stating an example so pls cont to work hard on team bond.

ok another long essay tonite.. byebye gd nitez